This love is still so new.
I find myself always thinking about you. How you say my name, How are hands fit the same. I love how you love me. Its so good, it’s funny. We fit like we were made for each other. I know I could never love another.
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I haven’t known how to tell you this, so i figured i would just come out and say it. I appreciate how you’ve been trying to restore our friendship and respecting my wishes to keep your distance. However at this time i feel that we can’t ever be more than friends. Like i have said before, i forgive you for what has happened in the past, but i don't think i could ever trust you again in the form of having a relationship. There is too much damage to come back from. So at this point i would like to tell you that i would want to be friends, i will always care for you, but i would ask that you not message me as much or expect things to progress. I really believed that we would have ended up together the first time, we had it all, but things don’t always go according to plan.
I want nothing but the best for you, and i pray that one day you will be able to find a good godly girl who you can be honest with and be yourself with. I’m thankful for the lesson i learned with you, you showed me how a man is to treat a woman and i am thankful for that, and i now know that i deserve nothing less than that. I find myself healing from the wounds that you have caused, and although i thought i would never recover i find myself not as sad as i used to be. I really believed you could have been the one. I still miss your family and i pray for the best for them. A part of me is always going to miss you, but i pray that everything will work out for you in the end. I will always be a friend and don’t be afraid to say hello when you see myself or my family. We will miss having you in our lives. I’m sorry. No matter how far I run
How fast I think I’m going. I know I won’t get far. Something always brings me back. Back to the place that built me. The place that Broke me. The place where my heart was torn And put back together countless times. No matter how hard i try to get away, this will always be where I feel safest. This is home. I’m back to where we were, at a red light when I fell for you. Drive slow cause I love the view.
life is an adventure. Sitting from the passenger’s side, I see everything new. the view from here is exciting exhilarating something to get used to. it can all fall apart, as long as I have you. You can't mask the underlying issues with a marriage, they will come up, they will have to be worked out, but if worked out during a marriage it will only cause more problems and trauma. You need to learn how to live with yourself. How to be alone with yourself before being with anyone else.
Tonight is one of those nights where nothing feels rightSomething feels off and i can’t tell what’s wrong
Was it something i said? Or something i thoought? But the fault is not yours. It’s all mine. You said you still like me So what is frightening me? What’s keeping me awake? What is it what made me shake? Something said made me feel like this is the end. It made me feel Because i think this is real. We haven’t known each other for long Yet my feelings are strong You tell me you want this Your eyes tell the same So what am i scared?? This is going so well, But what if in the end it’s just another story to tell? You said this I felt that Where do we stand? Is there even a floor? Or just a door? Please don’t go Is this goodbye Please don’t say goodnight Don’t let go of the light. I burned your hoodiesBurnt all our pictures
Leaving you behind Like you left me You don’t get a second chance This time the tables have turned You don’t get to pretend like you didn’t hurt me Left me in the dirt I’m don’t playing your games I watched it all go up in flames It felt so good to see a spark Like the one i used to feel in my heart You made your choice This is mine You don’t get to rewind This is where it ends No, we can’t be friends I don’t want to see what you’re doing Or who you’re with You don’t get to see what goes on in mine You had your time This is a new year A new season All you get to be Is another memory Call me crazy, You have before But this time, I’m the one headed out the door I gave you my heart You tore it apart Now I’m giving it to someone Who deserves it from the start The cancer began to spread,
We knew your time was coming to an end But here in the aftermath We know you’re not in any pain That brings a smile to my face You’re in a better place But while we’re down here There’s no filling the empty space. Rest Easy. Do you know what it’s like? To be so close to having it all
And see it all slip through your fingers? You can say you didn’t lead me on, But in the end you did. With every word Every praise Every hope that came from your lips You lifted my spirits Filled my head with dreams Only to crush them To make it as though they would never be I didn’t want kids I still don’t That dream died with him I didn’t want them But i would have wanted them with you My heart is aching, Oh how i wish it would stop. I wish you hadn’t hurt me I wish you didn’t have my heart All the dreams All the plans Was this ever in your mind? Did you give me a second glance? I believed this could have been it Turns out it was just the end I gave you my heart Trusted you when i couldn’t trust anyone Gave you my mind blindly Risked it all Seems we’ve both lost What then will i do? When I’m left with the ghosts That should have been you We needed to take a step back, but you kept pushing forward I knew it was too soon Yet i wanted to be with you You started the fire Yet i was the one who got burned We were so close to having it all You just couldn’t wait You had no patience You weren’t willing to hold on a little longer I want to cry But i can’t anymore I’ve cried too much My body can’t produce the means To relieve me of this pain anymore They tell you it will hurt They tell you you’ll make it through No one ever tells you about the pain of the emptiness When the lights fade And the voices stop The mind still wanders Still takes over Keeps you awake Keeps you reeling Keeps you there Never finding the peace you long for If you walk away Out that door Don’t you dare look back There won’t be anyone waiting for you If this is It, Say all you have to say Because you won’t get another chance I told you this is not a game Can you feel it? The pain i feel? Do you see me up? Still restless from our last conversation? Trying to figure out where we went wrong? Do you feel my pain? Because i can still feel you. I fell asleep last night Not because i needed rest Though i did But because my body couldn’t handle the pain anymore it shut down and forced itself to get rest I guess that’s what i do I keep going Draining myself For others Until i have to fight myself To physically to get the rest and care i need for me Whoever said “money can’t buy you happiness” never received a little blue box.”
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