Five minutes until I pull up into that driveway Five minutes until reality hits
Five minutes until I see all our loved ones Gathered under grave circumstances Five minutes to catch my breath Five minutes to compose myself I wish I had five more minutes with you Maybe this would hurt a little less It wasn’t supposed to end like this.... Five more minutes without you here I just need five more minutes Five more minutes
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I think of what could have been
Had we worked out You’re the first person I’ve let in Since I locked him out When he left me In that cold empty house Alone in fear Align with doubt I started to think I would never open up again I couldn’t let anyone close Not even a friend Then you came along We had that first kiss There was nothing I wanted more Than for it to not end like this We were good for a while I used to love to watch you smile Then one day you changed Started acting strange Turn your problems into mine I knew we were running out of time You didn’t give us a chance You played your selfish game Well here is the end of the cycle I’m not going to go insane Time is up Call it quits Walk out the door Forget about this Leave me be Don’t try to come back The next time you do I won’t hold anything back People
They Laugh Sing Dance Cry Try Rise Fall Fly Hurt Leave Change Stay Die Sleep Eat Speak Watch Move Forget Regret Hide Reach But In the end People Are make us We love What is happiness? Cause I wish I knew It’s not fair to me That my happiness relief on you Cause since you left I haven’t been happy since But my happiness was never you It was in how I felt around you So was my happiness selfish? Was it fake? Cause i know loving you Was my biggest mistake I gave you everything To you it was just a game I’ve been looking in the mirror Trying to forget your name My heart is empty My head hurts My heart is broken I’m trying to find my way back Remember who I am And how happy I was before you I’ll be happy after you Not right now But eventually At least that’s what I tell myself I’ll be okay right? Cause right now I can’t tell I can’t see I can’t look past these tears I used to be happy I used to be me But since you came around I forgot who I was meant to be I used to be happy I wish I could remember what that was like To be truly happy Because since I’ve been with you I haven’t been happy since I’m alone in a crowded room Lonelier when I’m with you I’d rather be on my own Because this is insanity You won’t change I bent so far backwards for you You didn’t care You wanted to see me break Tear me down You left me broken You left me bruised Torn apart Hiding in the dark I don’t think of you as much
But when I do it doesn’t hurt like it used to Doesn’t hurt like when you left me I’m learning to love myself again Love without you Learning to be good On my own. Do you know what it was like trying to fill your shoes
Do you know what it was like trying to fill your place Do you know what it was like in that empty space Trying to fill your shoes Trying so hard to be you You’ll never know what I went through Sadly, even after you’re gone, I can’t forget you. Could it be true?
Could you actually love me? With all my flaws With all my scars Everything that makes me afraid Makes me believe couldn’t be In love with me. You don’t see me, You can’t see from my point of view You can’t be at my level It’s too low for you. Because if you did You wouldn’t have stayed. Just let me go Just walk away. The pressure is too much It’s weighing down on me I just want you to be happy I just wish this was right I wanted you I tried with all my might It just wasn’t meant to be You and me. They say that time heals all wounds
But time only lets you forget Only lets the memories fade But sometimes Maybe that’s the best thing time can do Let you forget I swore I would never love again
After I lost you I thought i had nothing left No love to give I felt alone Ashamed And defeated You broke me In a way I never thought I could You pushed me too far I can’t forgive you for that I’ll never let you back in There’s nothing left to say I know it wasn’t working I’m no holiday But you damaged me Tried to destroy me I didn’t let you Now I’m rebuilding He’s loving me through this Taking his time Waiting his turn Being patient with me Not to compare But he’s everything you’re not Everything I need I can’t say this is Love yet We’re taking things slow Like you and I needed to But you wanted the feeling The gratification I was never in a rush I know this isn’t love yet But I know it could be Over time As we grow Together Patiently I don’t hate you You just weren’t right for me And I wasn’t for you I know that now I’m thankful I was strong enough to walk away Before we ruined each other Trying to force a love That wasn’t meant to be I’m sorry for that I hope you’re well I hope you find happiness The kind I couldn’t give you I tried to save you But you were never mine to save Like I was never yours to break I’m letting you go And keeping myself. |
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