My heart hurts. I thought this could have been it. You played me, made me think you could be the one. The deception, the lies, that's all stuff I can't get past. I forgive you but I can't do with anymore. My hopes were so high, you made me remember why it's hard to trust anyone. You lied to me. You've been this whole time. The person I thought you were, Is not the person you tried to hide. He's the real you, And I finally saw him. He looks like you, but he's not the same. You said you didn't know her name. It was all a trick, I was the one who got played. Like a deck of cards, You hid the Ace of Spades. I can't come back from this. You can't expect me to be okay with this. I can't let you back in, Just to let you hurt me again. I thought you were different, I thought this was it, Maybe that's why this makes me so sad. Life has to go on without you in it. I'll be okay, I know I will But right now i'm not. Right now i'm not okay. As I stand here at the edge of the water, I feel sad. I feel like I'm never going to find someone to love me as much as I do them. I love the beach, I love the sand, the water, the sounds, and smells. I could stand here all day long.
There is something peaceful about being here. Something inside tells me I'm going to be okay, no matter how I feel now. God has me, I know he has a plan, I just can't see it yet. There's a reason why you lied to me and a reason it came out when it did. There's a reason for everything, even though I can't see it yet. My trust is in him, the one who's loved me since before I was formed. I'm trusting in him to get me through this. I know now I'll be okay.
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AuthorReggie is a college gradute with a degree in English. She loves traveling and hopes to one day stay on the battle field for missions. Life is a book and everyday is an adventure, follow her on this journey and see the world through her eyes. Archives
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