When I first received this book, I was in a good place. I read it so many times my heart was overflowing with emotions. I love the way the poems read, how they flowed, the emotions they evoked. Yet, i felt removed, I felt I was reading someone else’s story. It was good, but I couldn’t relate. Now looking over it again, after heartbreak, they all mean something a little but different. Not that I mean I needed heartbreak, but now I can see what she was seeing. I find myself in her shoes, wondering why, trying to rebuild again. I feel the pain a little deeper. It’s no longer just words on the page, they are my words too, spoken for me, when I couldn’t find the strength to get them out. I find myself no longer in despair over having my heart broke, but in the final stages of rebuilding. As I was looking through, I found this single page, with the corner folded over, and I wondered why I did that. Back in 2017 this book was newly published, and I was in a good place. I can’t remember why I marked that page. It’s almost like the girl I was then, was preparing for the woman I am today. Saving this spot, for me to look over again. Read this page in victory. As I read the page, I began to cry tears of joy. This is exactly how I feel now. I could see him in the coffee shop, not worry about looking my best, and feels so relieved and amazing, because I’m not longer missing him. I am not longer under his spell, I could see him for what he is. I am not the one who lost, He did. I can’t help but thank my past self for leaving that there for me. A small fold, a single page, a victory won. A woman discovered.
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AuthorReggie is a college gradute with a degree in English. She loves traveling and hopes to one day stay on the battle field for missions. Life is a book and everyday is an adventure, follow her on this journey and see the world through her eyes. Archives
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