I came across Carlos E. Lang's Instagram on my flight back from Mexico City. I was looking for the person who wore the Mexico is the Sh*t jacket in front of the Trump Tower. After doing some research, I found it. I was so intrigued by the boldness of this guy and loved his feed, so naturally I followed him. Since being back home from my trip I have been finding myself in a state of pain, I've been said, and have made this publicly known. My heart hurts, I've been so sad, but when I came across Carlos' post on his TED Talk from 2015, I figured I needed to watch it. I honestly had no idea what he was going to be talking about, but It hit me hard. Literally started crying when said, "We go on Facebook and post Depressed, Back into reality" because this is how I've been feeling. I can't shake the way I felt while over in Mexico City, but then I had to come back.
He talked about his travels, and how To Travel is To Evolve, and I don't think i've ever heard someone put it so plainly. It's true, you become a different person when you travel. You grow, expand, and see the world a little differently. It is hard to think that someone would fine themselves in the same mundane job and routine day after day. When you travel, you break away from all of that. Before going on a trip to Japan, he talked about how he didn't picture life over there, he was excited to see what would happen. I myself and the type of person that needs to know every step of the way before I do something. As I am writing this now, I am counting down the minutes that I will have spent writing and analyzing what I need to give up tomorrow morning to savor a few more minutes of sleep. I am such a high speed person I sometimes don't know how to slow down. I've had people tell me "how do you do it? You seem like you never sleep." Honestly, I don't know how. Two jobs, an internship, and a social life are all things that are hard to balance. On this trip, I went with no expectations, no limits, and felt freer than ever. I didn't stress over time limits and I didn't even check what day it was. I hardly slept, but lived so well. I found myself enjoying myself for the first time. I've been out of the country several times in the last few years, and this was the first time I was truly free. Since I've been back, I've been stressed, depressed, and not caring how I dressed. I have focused my energy on the future and the next trip I could be on, My mind is over there, so I can't fully be here. I can't fully enjoy the place I'm in, because my mind is somewhere else. In his talk, Carlos explains this idea of a Travel Mindset where we find ourselves living in that mindset, that person we are on trips and living every moment like it's the last. Life is short, life is good, I can't change the future if i'm not in the present moment. Happiness is found where you make it and he believes tat you can ind happiness in your reality and not just try to escape it. A few years ago, I went through a traumatic experience, it damaged me pretty good. I didn't know how to recover from it. Usually when i'm sad or mad I just run, I get so upset inside that I physically need to go on a 3 mile run without stopping. This time running would cut it, I booked a flight, my first one out of the country. When I came back I was able to cope with the problems and move on. I never really dealt with the problem though, just tried to forget it. Since then, when problems come my way, I don't deal with them, I run from them. I run physically, mentally, and emotionally. I can no longer face them, I run. Travel has now become more of an escape, a way out of my reality. This time I can't find myself dealing with this one. This time I was broken beyond repair, I booked a flight and left for ten days. I came back and forgot all about the pain, but I still live with the ghost. The Travel Mindset is something i'm realizing I can have daily, I don't need to run, no matter how much I want to. I have so much to deal with, but sometimes I feel like no one cares to listen. This is why I write, not for any other reason but to get my emotions and pain off my chest. I'm an outward processor, so this is my only escape. I need to get things off my chest and forget them, if only for a moment. I was so inspired by Carlos and it felt good to see i'm not the only one who feels depressed after a trip. I don't know if I'm ready to deal with my issues just yet, but I know that I can't keep running from them. This is my reality, this is where I am, this is where I need to be. Fully here, in the present, with the Travel Mindset, making the most of every moment.
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AuthorReggie is a college gradute with a degree in English. She loves traveling and hopes to one day stay on the battle field for missions. Life is a book and everyday is an adventure, follow her on this journey and see the world through her eyes. Archives
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